Some of my work needs completion. Our internet connection develop untimely technical snag which is beyond the reach of my unpolished skill. So I wait. I wanted act fast; anxious to go on, and I become restless.
With my limited knowledge, I was simply hankering around till the connection gets restored as I contacted my network provider. However, it was not restored in time, so I called them up to act faster. It was beyond their jurisdiction, they informed later.
Their information was upsetting; it was not a befitting reply to me. We lived in a haste and hush-hush world, as always, we’re in a hurry and secretive. Most of our works are confidential. Thus we have time to wait for none; we wanted to wrap as soon as possible.
Then, I gather my folders to save them and sink myself into the chair. Suddenly I realized there were no hanging transactions which give me a sigh of relief.
Now, I have tasted and see the goodness of the Lord in abundance. But somehow my living slowed down, ending my office-going career and my nagging illness, which makes me get anxious very easily.
My Prayer Lists:
Since my childhood, we wouldn’t feature in the well-to-do lists, should there be one. Yet we’re never left to fetch for ourselves. So my prayer becomes my biggest tool for life.
I have my prayer lists from time to time, especially for those days I’d spent my time alone, praying. I had noted down my prayer points before I really kneel down to pray. In that way, I can review it later; thank Him or otherwise keep asking.
As I look back and tick the list of my answered prayers, I’m lost in words to describe the grace and compassion of Christ. Some prayers are not met exactly as I wanted but work out in the way which would best suit me. I reminded myself: God is in Control (Isaiah 43:1) We cannot dictate God.
For example, my prayer for college education had been met very abundantly. Still there are some items on the waitlist, some taken up recently, which keeps me anxious at times. In our anxiousness, we wanted God to act now; act fast and be kind!
Do Not Delay:
When we are in pain and stuck in the storm of life, we know that we have nothing in our hand. While certain insecurities, distress, and afflictions were caused by our own follies and infirmities.
Somehow people deserted me as I can’t give them a befitting reply in many ways. Otherwise, I have to desert them as I could simply add to their misery. People, even our families, stick longer no more if you are not useful to them. And that’s the reality of life
In Psalms 38, David’s prayer in the muddy water of difficult life was recorded. With this Psalm, I can very much relate myself to it. He prayed for his wounds, atrocities of sin, feeble, and people gloating over him.
The end of his petition captivated me: Come quickly to help me, my Lord and my Savior. In other words, act now Lord, come faster! (Psalms 38:22) Do not delay. You are my help and my deliverer. (Psalms 40:17)
Act Now and Be Kind:
As for me, there are times I’d become a laughing-stock because of my standard of work. Tending to my children was my job for me but the tagging of being unemployed in places is demeaning. And being doubled with illness can be disheartening at times.
When our monetary worth is decreasing it devalues our existence, as we can’t offer help to none. At times, it pains the heart. People around you out-smarted as they have to move on with their life. In certain times, we have to act as if we were deaf and mute (verses 13, 14) as we are being devalued.
My back (body frame) is filled with searing pain as there is no health (or poor health) in the body. I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart (only to you). All my longings lie open before you, Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. (V. 7, 8, 9 with my emphasis added)
Therefore, Lord; do not delay. Come quickly and be kind! Yet I trust in your timing.
Show Me Your Way
O Lord my God
The God of my father;
I have seen Your great work,
Your loving-kindness spared me.
Took hold of my illness and situations,
Do not take me deeper into realms of sufferings.
Took hold of my upcoming decisions,
Do not bring me deeper into storms of life.
Show me more of your presence,
That I may enjoy even in the midst of adversity.
Bless my sufferings and adversities,
That it becomes a blessing to me; and others.
Show me the way out,
See my longings and bless me.
My savior, do not delay;
Come quickly and show me your way.
If it’s in your will,
And if it’s going to serve me good;
Show me your way now, please
Raise me up again!
