[Only for chronically ill person.]
± There were times we wanted to give up. No, not willing to die but very much willing to live yet the physical pain elude our world.
± There were times we could not follow the beat of the music. It brings more pain to us.
± There were times we’re taken as seeking sympathy when we’re talking about our pain. But when we talk we feel lighter.
± There were times when we talk we’re taken as being negative. Yet we too are speaking hesitatingly.
± There were times we felt stuck in the mud and mire, always crying for help. Psalms 40
± There was insecurity because we’re no longer able to earn for the family nor our treatment.
± There were many times, most of the time, we do not want to say we’re in pain – those little yet consistent pain.
± There were times we do not see what’s coming up tomorrow. But we wanted to dream on.
± There were times we wanted to keep dreaming. But dreaming and planning sometimes hurt us back.
± There were many times we know that we’re very dependent on people whom they should be depending on us.
± There were many times we wanted to lead from the front yet we’re unable to follow others.
± There were times we wanted to do good but we’re shamed amidst people who also backstab us.
± There were times we wanted to live for as long as possible but find it difficult to keep along with people close to us.
± There were times we feel healing was not in sight – complete healing. But we’re the one who experiences healing the most!
± There were times when we know people around us are too caring, dedicated, uplifting, and selfless towards us.
± There were times when we can feel the prayers of others for us. It sounded in our ear or we can visualize people praying for us.
± There were many times we felt very much privileged to lead a life this way – although not always. But we do felt privileged because we’re loved – we hear it more often than before.
± There were many times we feel we are a burden. Yes, we do. They might be better off without us. Yet we’re loved. No one ever wanted to leave us behind.
± There were times we wanted to stop taking all the medicines. It costs us money. It also keeps us half-awake!
± There were times we wanted to work, pursue a degree course, or move forward at any cost. But we have few takers.
± There were times when we felt the little knowledge we gain from school to college has come down to this. Yet we’re trying to make full use of it.
± There were times we felt life is just a ship sailing by each day. Yet we wanted to make use of it.
± There were times we felt we might be useful in our limited being. Yet the zeal fluctuates a lot.
± There were times we hear tons of good advice, which we wanted to follow. But we find it hard to keep up with it.
± There were times we wanted to live alone and simply let things happen their way. But that’s not the way of life. We have to face it.
± There were times when the tension is high at home we’re more affected than those involved. But we don’t want anyone to know.
± There were times we find it difficult to adjust with people. No, it’s not possible always.
± There were times when it’s very difficult looking at the young face of our children. We wanted the best for them.
± There were times we need to search for happiness or a new spark in life. The more we forget our pain the better.
± There were times we question, “why me?” although we knew we’re no saints.
± There were times we wanted to know what our spouse or children really think about us.
± There were times we wanted to run away somewhere. But do not know where.
± There were times we felt we almost fell for the evil one. We might be prone but we do not want to.
± There were times we wanted to treasure all the good days but it wasn’t real. We’re past that period.
± There were times we wanted to start all over again. But that would never happen.
± There were times we want our perfect world but we’re in our chronic world – enjoying as much as we could.
± There were times we wanted to carry out our dream project but it’s far in real life.
± There were times we dream of fulfilling our duties. Yet it’s far from reality.
± There were times we wanted immediate access to Paradise. Yet we wanted to see our children growing up.
± There will be times when all these will vanish in thin air. We’re not here to make a legacy of good or bad but to get ready for eternity.
± You may add or have your say…
± In all these, the joy of the Lord is my strength Nehemiah 8:10
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