Not Yet

It’s been two years since I started this blog. I received a flash message from WordPress.com, which reminded me of my timeline. Should I start it right away when the idea first hit me, it would have been three years. Yet I said, Not Yet, as I was just a few months away from my brain surgery.

Now, said I, shredding the thoughts of not yet as I clearly knew times are really valuable when you realized your life’s not in your hand. Not been a good writer, or never have been, yet the willingness to inspired people and instill hope in different circumstances of life could be seen in my work.

So this month, I celebrated by blogversary with all of you, dear readers, subscribers, and well-wishers. To God be the glory!

With this unlikely title “Not Yet” I celebrated my blogversary. “Not yet” is to focus on making decisions and decisions as game changers. There’s a timing for everything. The ‘not yet’ version can stop us for good, make us start things for good. Everything’s in the hands of God. He makes everything perfect in His time. (Eccl. 3:11)

Due to my tight hospital appointments and visits, I was late in putting out this post. The changing seasons have made life a new wave of enthusiasm and appreciation. In the same way, it is time to take good care of the body and its needs.

In due course of time, I am reminded of our limited existence yet bounded by limitless grace of God, which makes us do things we wanted yet had the privilege of saying ‘not yet’ on many things with due prayer.

As I celebrated my blogversary this month, there are only a few things I wanted to share with you.

1. I can’t stop blogging about my illness as of today. It sounded absurd to many but I have been writing about the lessons I have learned through my chronic illness for a long time now. It has been 10 years ago now although I only make my notes in silence where the majority of them ended up just being a note.
2. Some of my inspirations came only through my illness. It reminded me of the grace of God by which I can only live a normal life now. My body and its thinking powers might not be at the desired level yet I don’t want to say ‘not yet’ in putting out the inspiration I had seen day to day. That is one reason why I keep talking about my weakness.
3. It is quite understandable that with physical weakness there’d be minimal growth or no growth even in the financial sector. However, it is a blessing for me being able to make a platform for myself with the menial task I can perform.

Now, But, Not Yet:

I am quite happy I have been blogging for all these years despite the setbacks in different ways I had experience. I am privileged to have published a book entitled “Unconsumed: In His Abiding Grace.”

However, just publishing is not the end of the game. It must reach the hands of those persons who needed to hear the message encrypted in it. Not a time for celebration, yet a time to be happy. Enjoy the little moment of happiness as it may not come again!

The wedding in Cana, where Jesus turns the water into wine, was before his time. In His own words, “Woman, why do you involve me? My time has not yet come.” (John 2: 6) We are a work in progress yet He is doing a favor to us in His grace.

In the grace of God, I can enjoy everyday living as He leads me to still water and suffices my needs. More of His goodness is yet to be seen!

Not yet seeing face to face:

When our going gets tough, we wanted to see the Lord face to face, hear His voice just as we hear those of others who spoke often although it may don’t make sense at times.

When our body is fully consummated by what we called as earthly, we’ll be nearer to our creator in seeing Him. But before that we have to endure the pain and adversities, which are the gifts of life, adding spices to our living.

In many instances there’s this desire for seeing the face of God, holding His hand, as we physically did with our loved ones. But in reality, we are holding Him in our heart not to turn away from Him.

For now, we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. (1 Corinthians 13:12)

Good-bye, Not Yet:

I have a brother who passed on some years ago. Today was his birthday. He was my first friend, my defender, my faithful secret keeper, and my role model. He was always stronger than me.

I was submerged in a plethora of emotions today. Goodbye so soon, I always felt. There’s a hole in my heart. He was my decision maker, a friend in the dark and open spaces.

‘Talk to your sweetheart today, brother
Read her short message for you.
She’ll not hear you read it out,
Faithful for you and your children, she’s been.
We already said goodbye to you
But not really in our heart yet!

Goodbye, not yet, brother
But you’re gone too soon.
May God take care of us;
All of us – our family.
It’s a way life, sayin’ goodbye
Hope you’d be in good hands.

We sing in the woods, brother
We climb trees, jumped in the water
Bear the rod of discipline together
At times, we messed with families,
Spicing up life, changing the air
For good, I believe, is our goodbye!

I enjoyed blogging whenever I am allowed to. There are certain things in life that need prior attention. In every situation of life, Jesus Christ had given me the privilege to live a life and to the full, in other words, living life abundantly. (John 10:10)

As of now, I did not have beneficial finance uplifting because of my writing except getting respite for myself in the suffering world and growing more in faith through the people I met during this short period. I will keep blogging, as I did not start it by myself until God had wanted me to do so.