So be it, Lord!

“You know what, dad, that you once told me one thing before?” asked my child.
“Please remind me.”
“Okay, you once told me a day will come when you question why my dad is living this way – having a chronic illness? Today, I’m asking you this question,” he said.
“Yes I remember, but the question itself is to ask yourself or to God, or to me.” He might have something to say. So I tried giving him his space to express what is in his mind.
And, I continued. “Now, you first tell me what is in your mind.”
“To see more of the goodness of the Lord – is what you told me,” he replied.
“Do you agree with that?”
“Yes, but sometimes I wish you were stronger.”

Then before he could grapple the moment in his mind, all of a sudden I throttled down a few blocks away painting a big smile on his face.

“Yup! Look at me, I am very strong. I can run faster than you,” I japed at him hiding myself grasping for breath.

We were happy, hugging each other as we laugh off the temporary sadness in a child’s heart. I loved it when we talked about the real happenings of life.

At my behest, I don’t want to keep important issues untold to the best of my knowledge. It is important for me to have a healthy conversation about anything they wanted to know.

We were strolling in the dusk with me holding them both in their hands. Actually, they wanted to play badminton but we leave behind the racket as I’m not in the condition to play it today. So, somehow I persuaded them to take a walk with me.

They lamented those days when we could play football or any game with them as much as they wanted. A day will come again when we can play with their less tantrum and understanding of the game and situation. But now we have limited few things which are hard to accept for children of their age.

As we take our walk we talked about those times when God had heard our prayers and the experiences of overcoming our difficult times so that they also get to know the goodness of the Lord flowing on us abundantly.

“So be it, Lord!” I told them is the moment when we become dependent on God, and depending on the Lord is a way of seeing his goodness. I told them again that it is when we can say “so be it, Lord” truly in our heart everything that comes our way, although it may not feature on our planing, is the way of seeing the goodness of the Lord.

“So be it, Lord!”

Then we reached a spot where we can sit an iron bench. We talked about me not working anymore. I inquired how they felt in the midst of their friends. They don’t seem to mind it as yet.

One more reason, said my eldest child while talking about him being happy is that I stayed home with them you day in day out? They didn’t enjoy the times when I worked and they have to stay with a hired baby sitter. Now, although I can’t meet their financial needs; they somehow felt contented being at home.

Surrendering Worries:

We know that mother had to work for us, which is the way now for us to survive in meeting our daily needs. Mommy needs good health as we take care of ourselves. Financially being stable is our dream but surrendering our worries to the Lord, especially since I left my banking job, is a way to contentment.

Now that Christmas is around the corner again, and our stockings might get thicker when we broke the small piggy bank where my children had dropped their coins the entire year. When we broke open the small piggy bank they will know the value of saving out a penny which I hope would instilled value for every penny.

Through thick and thin, when we can learn to say “So be it, Lord!” in our walk of life. To speak the truth it is me more than others in my family who worries a lot! But I had also discovered the way of overcoming it although I needed to remind myself over and over again when I can’t work out my desires.

Trusting on the Lord:

In my walk of life, there are things that bother me. I used to recall the commanding words of Jesus Christ stating; “Do not be afraid, just believe.” (Mark 5:36) Although I’m not going to discuss here the circumstances meaning to it. It has a very deep meaning in the life of a human.

There is one thing I am very much concern about my children. I do not want their lives to be traumatized because of me. I don’t want them to have childhood trauma or of fearing to live a fruitful life. Not getting despised, growing beyond the trauma, and keeping them in peace and trusting the Lord more and more is what I prayed for them.

You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you because he trusts in you. Isaiah 26:3 . Also, Psalms 112: 7 says, “Surely the righteous will never be shaken; they will be remembered forever. They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD.”

Seeing the Goodness of the Lord:

Our normal life does not require doctors. It is only when we became ill, we appreciate the skills acquired through their hard work. They have very limited skills in the area yet they are the only ones under God, and the knowledge given by God. So, we have hope and put our level of trust in them. In that way, when we were low on health, finances, and many possible factors we put our trust in the Lord. Only then we can see the goodness of the Lord than others when we finally can say “So be it, Lord!” in our hearts.

Those who trust in the Lord see the goodness of the Lord even in their most difficult times. Difficult it might seem but in fear, insecurity, and in the face of adversity we get closer to the Lord and see more of the goodness of him.

We say so be it, Lord not because we wanted to give up our own pursuit of living but because we wanted to put out trust in him.

So be It!

In my conclusion and my reason for writing this posts is to remind and help each other in saying “So be it, Lord” in circumstances of life even though we’re unable to see through but trusting on the Lord and in the work of the holy spirit inside us as we take our daily decisions.

Do not say “So be it!” and stare blank onto the future like a person without having hope; with the living hope from Christ, but say “so be it, Lord!” and I’m clinging unto you.