Busy them all are moving
Where are they all going
Does all of them know?
Is there a time to ask, No
Fading in the roadway noise.
They’re enjoying the heat
There’s so much to beat
And yes, that’s life, friends.
Better than left in the corner.
I’ve been there I lamented
From far facing at the road
Not near the roadway noise
They chat at their top voice
Oh, I miss the bustling sound!
And I’m very alive back then
Gladly bearing everything
Very much alive, my friends
Enjoyed every day and night
By now the time has gone by
I see things have changed a lot
And yes, maybe only to me!
At month’s end, we talked
Of numbers hitting our bank
No such things by now, friends
Give me a new lease on life
I wanted to start over again
I’ll not simply blow it away.
I see things have changed a lot
Still capable and not giving up
Hanging on the chord of hope.
Uneasiness
The day before yesterday and today, I felt uneasiness in my body and mind. My mind’s heavy just as my usual body, which would have its share of testimony if parts of it may speak. I try to subdue them leading them to calm down as I prayed.
You know what, I believe in God – in his power and his purpose for everyone. Yes, sometimes, I find it strange though. But I a not to be counted among the ‘good without God’ category. In the middle of the night and in the strange hour of the day, I prayed to my God in Jesus’ name.
The Roadway Noise:
For a few minutes, I went out to check what was happening outside. My car seems to miss me! Then, I glanced towards the busy road from a distance. I took a picture of it. The buzzing sounds of traffic, the unrelenting horns are loud as usual. I am reminded of my office going days. It is me who love the work pressure, there’s joy in solving a problem and helping people through your acquired knowledge.
Till today I am unsure if my illness or disorder escalated because I have to resign from my work to take care of my children, which I called living from the sideline. And whether my physical illness escalated following its due course of time. I still wanted to work, you know.
Today, I was surfing the internet for a job which may suit me. I started based on my work experience which I had in those fields of work. So, I started with CopyWriting, Data Entry, Editor, Content Creator, General Banking, and my new area of interest Christian related works and Faith-based jobs, to name a few.
Then, some of the locations did not suit me. Most of all, I need to take good care of scammers or fraudsters, we have had time dealing with them in the past in my previous workplaces. I wanted to give time for my children too, for now, so there’s a hard time finding a job. So many things to do, very little time we had.
Speaking our Mind:
We should be able and allowed to speak our minds. Some people find my poems and writings to be depressing. And it’s depressing indeed taking into account the writer and when it’s written. It’s better to put out than keep inside us which depreciate our mind and body.
It’s hard to find a listener who understands at times. It is good not to expect from a person. It is better to say it out or cry it out to the Lord in the corner of a room or by ourselves. He listen, he calmed our soul and mind.
By spending time with our Creator, one is allowed to say his real thoughts and his real state as seen by him. But the Lord knows all well before we say it out loud. However, crying out makes us lighter.
Thank you for helping through your prayers. Let’s keep fighting so that we might not perish in our minds and attitude.
