‘Maybe you don’t trust God enough
Remember nothing is that tough
You put too many limitations on you.’
If these were directed at you how will react?
Sometimes, directly and indirectly, I have come across these bits of advice. It sounds better to call it bits of advice. I suppose I need more wise words of counsel, so you’re welcome anytime.
What if I did not get completely healed because I lack complete trust. Yes, that is me. I admit it.
No one wants to endure chronic illness. My trust level, in other words, my faith is fluctuating. However, most of the time it remains steady as per me.
But it was totally different in the perception of others.
To me, my limitations are my necessary essentials. And I may be wrong. I don’t want to hurt myself or trouble others and be shamed inappropriately.
I did not go out enough I always had to take care of something or myself. Books and research are my thing and friends nowadays. I’m not good at it either. The joy of going to offices was replaced by the joy of being alone doing what I wanted.
Necessary limitations:
We cannot have all the good things thing in life. However, to some people that is not life. Not everything can be fixed. And not everything needs to be fixed. It is life in the real world. I drove a dented car for a long time now, after a tree fell upon the bonnet.
You can say the same with my health too. It was not my health at first that grounded me. I want to stay close to my children before changing lanes in life. Yet things change in real-time in the real world.
To be honest, I don’t want to test God nor my little faith by wanting to catch me if I fall without using safety gears life has provided. I cannot risk it all to embarrassed myself nor take up roles even if I wanted to. For me, this would not accepting the necessary limitations of life. If the engine is still running I must be grateful. God will take care of it and change directions accordingly.
Trusting and faith:
I believe in God and also in the miracle healing and divine intervention for a better life. So far things did get better and better. But some of the remarks I have heard if I can’t fulfill my duty over anything is not so sweet. Still, I’m fine with it because it is me.
If success is the measure of trusting and having a strong faith in God, and by success if we mean designation at workplaces, it may not be me. Yet I’m thankful to God for directing my path although it’s not always a bed of roses.
I don’t want to run after miracle healing prayer all the time. Thank you for your forwarded messages and advice. Some people made a U-turn in life because God did not grant their prayer. I don’t want to be that kind of a believer.
My limitations:
Yes, I have hated these limitations. I believe I have something usable left in me. It’s just that I did not meet a suitable hire in the ministry. The Lord is my portion, so I shall wait. Lamentations 3:24
I wanted to travel and pursue higher education going back and forth and meeting loved ones. However, all these need limitations although I can do some of them at my own pace.
Sometimes it will appear suicidal if I did not put limitations on myself. No one wants this life. But no one knows what might be the best life for a person in this world. If you have limitations, you tend to think more about life.
At times, it was challenging since there were so many things I wanted to do more in life. I’m not consumed by the grace of God.
There is nothing to boast about in me. If I keep breathing; I’m alive and grateful. I already knew the value of a single good breath of the air around us.
Trusting more:
‘Put your trust in him
Don’t be afraid at all
God will take care of it.’
Softly and justifiably the advice comes. I’ll try my best to trust in him more and more each day. At some point in my journey, the Lord will be magnified through me. Then glory and praise will be unto him more than today.
Putting complete trust in the wrong time and at person is both dangerous and also can encourage us to lead a better life. I don’t know by what measures we became successful and useful. The measures of the Lord is different.
Yet I’ll try to be more useful for God, in the meager way I could, and to everyone near me and in my immediate community. At the end of the day, I thank God for giving me a chance to live another day in his grace! Although I may have a little faith and not enough trust to carry forward, God is so good to me!
My Gratitude to you:
Thank you for your consistent prayer although I may not know you personally. To all my readers and writer friends, I consider you my brothers and sisters in Christ. I long to meet you someday. But I know it will not be possible due to our political boundaries and geographical distances.
God bless you all!
