Either you walk out or you work out, at least two options seem to find a spot in almost every situation. But there were situations which you think are a far cry from these two options.
I remember listening and laughing to the nonsensical lines of ‘We were on a break,’ from Friends – the popular American TV sitcom of the 90s. It’s just for entertainment; there’s hardly a break in real life. Although here it pertains to relationship issues. But I want to talk other than that. So, let’s leave it here.
‘It’s been long……’ I whispered to myself. No, not about the sitcom – my situations or circumstances.
Then, dropping onto my couch I reassured myself, ‘you’re fine and you will be… Don’t walk out on yourself!’
By the way, there were times I wanted to walk out on myself. It sounds strange, eh?
When there were so many things or obligations gets flashed in my mind, I did that. Yet there is at least two choices, always!
It’s a matter of longing to be useful. And, There’s this dream which I thought I haven’t achieved yet. It must be on its way. I’ll not reveal it here but to the Lord.
I have another choice: I try to work out my circumstances. Sometimes I wanted a break!
But I don’t want to make enough space for the evil one or thoughts to fill that vacuum. My wife and my children always encourage me to walk on…
They told me that they’ll take care of me. It makes me happy. But this is life who knows what happens next.
Things get change in a minute second, you don’t even know what’s going on around you. But one day we would know in its entirety. It must be more beautiful than we’d expected!
Walkout:
Up until today, no one in my family wanted to walk out on me. That’s what I know and I also hope it’s true. We trust each other.
As for me, there were numerous times I wanted to walk out on myself or from my physical body and my surroundings.
When my body witnesses these bouts or episodes of pain and the consequences, I forgot to thank God for everything. But when I sat down with the Lord, he leads me to the still waters.
‘I’d make a hut in the mountains and live by myself to escape. I will run away until I reach the juniper tree or better still until I passed out….’ This idea is attractive to me too.
But the Lord will find me there. I am his – yesterday, today, and in days to come. And then there must be a long good path to follow from here. I mean, from the little shade of the juniper tree.
So, it’s better to avoid walking out of my situation and on myself. I will hold onto the Lord.
Workout:
I felt the need to work out my accumulated body fats. I need to get rid of it. However, I also realized that it’s not enough.
It is a pity that I will soon feel dizzy when I work out. Yes, my children wanted me to be a little healthier and stronger than my present position.
I enjoyed kicking the football around with them. My playing days are over now. No, it’s not age-related, but health issues. Just like every father, I also have a dream of playing with our children, leading them, and teaching them. But now we have to be cautious, perhaps more cautious if that helps.
‘Take your SOS pill with you, always.’
In any case, I forgot to carry one, they too have it with them. Every minute counts. I must be thankful.
Any Third Option?
Sure, there is always an option.
I need to work out more on my attitude: Be thankful! Be happy!
[These are the things I keep reminding myself.]
Don’t get lost on those chain of thoughts.
You’re good financially if you have food on the table and a place to sleep. I already went through all these.
At least you’re not in that fumigated room. My room smells good to me. My wife and children are caring.
I love reading, learning, and writing – keep engaged in your area of interest!
Above all, read the scriptures. I’ll meditate more on it. Take more courses. He is close to those who seek him. Psalms 34:18
Not Walking out:
It is better to rely on your God in every circumstance. Don’t ever curse your God. We can question him. But not challenge our living God. Let’s keep on fighting the good fight. 1 Tim. 6:12
But wait patiently for his answer. Yet don’t rush God! Don’t try to help God!
Don’t walk out on me:
I believe you won’t, Lord.
But don’t walk out on me
I’m writhing in pain here
Don’t ever walk out on me
Yet keep working on me
Yes, keep working on me
Make me ready for all seasons
Hold my hand always, Lord
I want to see you hold me
I want to feel you hold me
Don’t walk out on me
I don’t want to let go of me
I don’t want to walk out on myself
Help me to work out with you
I’ll defeat all that bothers me
Work your ways on me.
You lead me this far
Not by my might, O Lord
You carry me day by day
You gave me rest and hope
Don’t walk out on me
We’ll win the fight!
