I’d rather be here with you
Listening and talking to you
In my suffering and pain
You let me see you more
I’d rather be here with you
Waiting for the rain!
It might sound like a bit disturbing proclamation, presentation or concept to some people. It is sometimes intriguing to present your mind to others without filtering. However, that is not my purpose for writing this piece. I do want to move on…
I’d rather be in pain:
Should there be a chance to trade our circumstances with a different set-piece, we might want to. We simply long for what we did not have while everything may turn out for our good. The truth is we did not know it yet. 2 Cor.4:16-17
When I’m in pain, it is hard to bear. And everyone knows that. The state of being in pain would not be a choice in normal circumstances. Yet this pain, especially physical pain, teaches us lessons the hard way. However, there were times when it seems the lesson is no more applicable.
Until now, my pain gets me grounded bringing me closer or seeking God more and more. Thus, I’d rather be in pain here. I don’t want it to end for eternity yet!
I’d rather suffer:
For me, suffering seems to be a gift or provision for my living. but not withholding nor hiding the healing powers of God. I got to see and witness the miracles of life in my daily life. Each day is a miracle to me!
I did not choose it to be this way round, it must have happened for a good reason.
All creations suffer for a reason. Romans 8:22 I’d rather suffer without attempting to bypass all the bogus it brought along.
I’d rather stay dry:
If I’d still be talking about work and promotion, I might be happy holding my head high. But I will also say it’s in the flow of workplace hierarchy, which comes sooner or later. I’ve been there for a good number of years.
Then, I’ll retire getting my monthly pensioner allowance. I will say it’s because of my contribution while working in that sector. That’s how we wanted life to be. But I will not think much about God. Let me admit again here that I’m sometimes envious of working people. However, if the need arises, I believe that I’ll be able to work again despite any kind of circumstances. For now, I’d rather stay dry financially. It is a choice I’ve made a decade ago.
If I do very well in this area, I might consider myself to be ‘good without God’ who knows! Yet it will be a derailed lifestyle for me as a believer of Christ.
I’d rather be here waiting:
Lately, I get to realize that talking about my mindset and situation hurts some people in different ways although unintended. It makes me not jealous of people who could hold onto their career and status, in some way. Anyways, life’s just like that!
Yes, you are right if you say I have no other options now. But never say never!
I’d rather be waiting for my time to fly again. Waiting for my time to be useful once again. It would be wise for me to trust in my shield and wait, sometimes procrastinate, about my future dreams.
Well, procrastination at times resulted in being original. Thus, I’d rather wait on my God so that journey would be channelized once again in his name for his glory!
I’d rather be here:
#Contd.
I’d rather be here with you
You may not take away my pain
I’ll not hold a grudge against you
Let me feel your presence here
Dancing even in my pain
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I’d rather be in pain here
With you here, O my God
I’d rather suffer the pain here
Every part of my past failure
And what’s in store for me,
Use it for your glory!
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Pain brings me close to you
All my sufferings and shame
Seeking you more than before
I’d rather bear it with you
Please don’t take it away
You know it best for me!
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Trying is of no use to me
My sight bleak; no hope nigh
Yet I’d rather be here with you
All roads lead me to this pit
I’m tempted to give up on me
Your presence gives me hope
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I’m afraid to get stuck here
And my pain never left me
I’m more afraid of losing you
Don’t take away my pain
And never leave me alone
I want to get closer to you
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It’s for a lifetime I was told
I know it’s never before you
I do believe you work wonders
Every good day becomes a miracle
And I’d rather be here with you
Be magnified in my life!
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Anxious thoughts ran over me
I’m not immune to depression
Insecurity brings me to tears
Yet I’d rather be here with you
Not getting out of this slimy mud
My suffering will not eclipse you
I’d rather be here with you!
