I’d just graduated from High School. It was time to move into universities. My friends and my peers are busy juggling their choice of universities. For me, it doesn’t seem to happen soon as I wanted.
There was no money in our family balance sheet for entering a prestigious university. Since Daddy involved us in maintaining the balance sheet at a very young age, and I know, there is no money. There is no point of putting up a demand, which cannot be met. It will simply lead to unwanted misunderstandings for a moment.
At that time, we lived in the western corner of a small town. Nearby our house, there was a place designated for prayer but not yet in used. In the family, we called it as ‘our Bethel – our place of prayer,’ taken from the biblical Bethel. Every evening, just before dark, Daddy led us there to kneel and pray. So the practice of talking to God was inculcated in us.
One day the thought of spending time alone with God, acknowledging my needs and concerns, came in my mind. I asked Daddy for his permission to go alone in a prayer mountain, which was located at the outskirts in the eastern side of our town.
Daddy agreed with the idea. So, in the evening I set out carrying the Bible, hymn books, and some candles to be lighted in the night.
There are number of small Prayer Cabins made available for anyone who wanted to spend time with God. It was maintained by the Nehemiah Prayer Team based in the vicinity of our town. I’d occupied one such cabin by myself – all alone. I was there for three days and four nights, fasting – without eating a thing.
I’d sang and prayed through day and night. I’d started pouring out my heart. My secrets were made known to God, especially those I could not afford to tell anyone. In that way, letting myself emptying. There was no time for sleeping. It was as if someone came down to spend time with me. It was a great feeling. It was a time I will never forget in a life time. My request and thanksgiving were let known to Him. It was a time to commune with my God.
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope,” Jeremiah 29:11 reads. This is a ‘very promising verse’ in a ‘very unpromising chapter’ of the Book of Jeremiah.
Now that the fourth night was over, the Caretaker of the place came and informed. My brother came to pick me up and bring me home. I was happy to spend such time at a very young age. However, my request to God for a prestigious university did not happen for one year. I felt lighter and happier than before.
I am blessed to work as a small time Teacher in an Elementary School at that time. After a few months, I got settled in my job. I loved spending time with the school children, imparting knowledge as much as I can. I also enjoyed their company through the day. I was thoroughly enjoying my role as a teacher. Even more so, I earned money for the family and my enrolment in a local college. It was a tight schedule from morning to evening, and I was really happy.
One year had already passed, when one day, I got a long distance call from one of my Uncle. He was enquiring if I would like to pursue college degree from a prestigious university. I was informed that they could spare some amount from his hard-earned money towards my study expenses. And that I might pursue higher studies if I wanted to. Now, I was overwhelmed by what God has done.
Even after one year, when my hope has already become thin, He answered my prayer. Not all prayers are answered, there are unanswered prayers too. I praise God for His unfailing faithfulness!
We discussed the matter with my father, and agreed to take advantage of the ‘help’. I was fit and healthy then. So, with high hopes, I set out to enter one of the top universities of our country. I started there and go on to complete my master’s degree in few years.
Unexpected twist and turns are experienced over the phases of life. However, one thing that never deserted me – ‘His presence’ – the presence of God even in the worst crisis of life. I do believe, He will lead me Home safe and sound, when all life’s works are completed.
Written based on my journals.